A prayer and a pledge

This is my problem Sophia, gentle guide to wisdom and truth, I have been shoving away the possibility that this experience of my dream image is a real and authentic call of my heart. I have tried to make it rational and logical.... something the soul is not. I do not know where this image will go but I know I have to step into the projected reality of my soul and give it a shot. I must... I have to let go of all that has come before and step into this mysterious and unknown world you are beckoning me to dance in. There is clarity in writing this, a peace and tranquilness. I ask you in this making this decision that You please do not let me waiver again. I hurt people, I hurt myself, I hurt You. I am coming Beloved Sophia. It has taken my 2 long years (probably longer) but if you will have me, guide me and hold me, I willingly surrender to your peace, truth, wisdom and love. I can do this. I can become what you desire me to blossom into, although I do not know what that is. I hope and pray you cradle me in your arms. For here at Kanuga my soul feels restored and clarity is witnessed. No fear or regret, just calm knowing. I pledge to you my Beloved soul, my God, that I will follow your calling to allow the third to enter in. I will follow my dreams although it may cause turmoil and change for others. I pledge to do this authentically, lovingly and humbly with forgiveness and grace in my heart. Amen